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Im having a meltdown. Not the put-her-in-the-loony-bin kind, but the rock-in-the-corner-so-I-can-breathe kind. Maybe theyre one and the same and I really do need to be put away, but I think I just need a little air. Im bone tired. My eyes look like I havent slept in weeks. Im eating my feelings and developing a pudge that isnt gonna go anywhere if I keep binging on chocolate, nachos and wine. Im 28 and everyone has left me. I have no friends. My boyfriend left. My mom died, so technically she left me too. I hate my job. I get this overwhelmingoh my God, is this what my life is gonna be?feeling and I want to die. Curl up and die. And since I dont feel my heartbeat fading or my breathing getting even slightly faint, I panic that Im gonna have to live. Maybe Mabyis a heartbreaking, and at times, hilarious story about coping with loss, finding love in New York, and learning to recognize hope in the middle of it all.