Daughter of Fire - A Diary of a Spiritual Training with a Sufi Master - Unabrigded

LITTLE DID IRINA TWEEDIE know that her trip to India in 1959, at the age of fifty-two, would mysteriously lead her to a Sufi master, and set her upon a journey to the "heart of earts," the Sufi path of realization. Bhai Sahib's first request of her was to keep a complete diary of her spiritual training-everything, all the difficult parts, even all the doubts. He predicted that one day it would become a book and would benefit people around the world. This diary spans five years, making up an amazing record of spiritual transformation, the agonies, the resistance, the long and frightening bouts with the purifying fires of Kundalini, the perseverance, the movements towards surrender, the longing, and finally the all-consuming love. From a psychological viewpoint, the diary maps the process of ego dissolution, gradually unveiling the openness and love that reside beneath the surface of personality. Mrs. Tweedie is the first Western woman to be trained in this ancient yogic lineage. Her story and experience testify that this teaching system can still be powerfully transformative today in our modern world. Foreword PART ONE - ACROSS THE CHASM OF FIRE Perplexities and Premonitions Doubts More Doubts A Sign One of the Hierarchy Echoes from the Past Effortless Path The Mystical Sound Love is Produced Benares and Adyar Flight Into The Unknown The Challenge The Four Doors The Dweller on the Threshold Curriculum Vitae of Sins Circulation of Light A Blank Check A Flaming Row Our People are Tested with Fire and Spirit The Stages of Love Casting out of a Spirit The Sun Cannot Harm Me Either” Who Will Remember? Drunk Those who are Dead do not Remember The Terror of Love The Turning of the Heart We Have Two Hearts Dhyana is the First Step The Last Belief Must Go Is It God?? Serious Illness The Most Difficult Year of my Life The Dream “You Have to Go” “Time and Space are Nothing to Us” “And the Grace of God Will Be with You” There is No Luck, but only the Divine Grace Living with God The Great Separation Sitting Outside: A Self-discipline Suicide? Faith without Understanding Quite Poor, Nothing is Left Bandhara Took Some of His Hair A Saint has always a Light over his Head The Pain of Love Forebodings: The Killer Instinct “Never Hurt Anybodyâ€TMs Feelings” To Become like Him “Try to be Absorbed” One Must Be Able to Sleep in the Street Mounting Irritation PART TWO Return The First Cloud What is Nearer -the Source or the Delta? Faith and Love are One The Story of a Wali Rebuff to a Bore Training of the Jinn World Tawadje Time Runs Short People Judge by Appearances The Divine Thread Testing Period Renal Colic Blessing of a School Dhyana? A bithday present The Test of Hunger Another Heart Attack The Test of Acceptance of Death Resigned to Die His Anger Born of the Spirit To Endure and to Endure Hard Times Are Passing Away The Pressure Increases Nothing but Nothingness Death Freedom Love and Faith Become One Himalayan Retreat Scorpion and Caterpillar The Snows and the Sound Seven Colors of the Rainbow Chorus of Voices Samarpan (Surrender) Meditation Little did Irina Tweedie know that her trip to India in 1959, at the age of fifty-two, would mysteriously lead her to a Sufi Master, and set her upon a journey to the "heart of hearts," the Sufi path of realization. Her teacher's first request of her was to keep a complete diary of her spiritual trainingeverything, all the difficult parts, even all the doubts. He predicted that one day it would become a book and would benefit people around the world. This diary spans five years, making up an amazing record of spiritual transformation ... the agonies, the resistance, the long and frightening bouts with the purifying forces of Kundalini, the perseverance, the movements towards surrender, the longing, and finally the all-consuming love. From a psychological viewpoint, the diary maps the process of ego dissolution, gradually unveiling the openness and love that reside beneath the surface of the personality. Mrs. Tweedie is the first Western woman to be trained in this ancient yogic lineage. Her story and experience testify that this teaching system can still be powerfully transformative today in our modern world. First published in its abridged form as Chasm of Fire (which has sold over 100,000 copies and has been translated into six languages), Daughter of Fire is a unique account of a spiritual training with a Sufi Master and is the most detailed account of the relationship between disciple and teacher that exists in Western Literature. Written in diary form, this title has already sold over 30,000 copies worldwide and is now being published through The Golden Sufi Center.